Are People With Depression Selfish?
I have heard many people claim that people with depression
are selfish.
Like, how dare you not get out of bed? The rest of us are
contributing to society, what makes you so special?
How dare that parent attempt suicide? Don’t they know they
have a family to care for?
How dare you not go to your friend’s birthday celebration
because you hate yourself and don’t want the world to see how dark you’ve
become?
As if none of this effects the person with the actual
illness.
As if they are not painfully aware that they’re suffering is
pushing you away.
As if they don’t already feel like an inconvenience and a
burden.
When talking about her bipolar disorder, Carrie Fisher once
said “Sometimes
you didn’t want to be that person. You didn’t want to hold the dinner party
hostage. And I didn’t have a choice.” I think a lot of people who
struggle with mental illness can relate to this. You’re a burden if you go to
the party and you’re a burden if you don’t. You feel like the darkness of your
mental illness infects everyone you talk to, so you stay silent. You lock the
doors, stay inside and turn off your phone because you don’t want to risk
spreading your sorrow or your sickness.
But is it selfish to prioritise your survival? Because
that’s the reality of what’s happening when you have depression. All of your
energy goes into your basic survival; waking up, eating, sleeping, and not
throwing yourself in front of a bus. This may sound exaggerated but for many,
including myself, this is the reality.
If we could talk openly we would say,
“I’m sorry that you broke up with your boyfriend, that
really sucks but I’m actively trying not to have a mental breakdown right now
so hopefully I’m mentally well enough soon to give you the attention and
support that you deserve”. Or “I still love you but I’m too exhausted to show
it”.
You can’t say that depression makes someone selfish or rude
because depression is an illness, not a character flaw. It can cause you to push
people away. It can result in hibernation, not responding to texts or meeting
up with friends. It can lead to fights and anger and irritation but that
doesn’t make them a bad friend, it makes them a sick friend.
"The problem with mental illness is people don't look at it as a
physical illness. When you think about it, the brain is actually the most
complex organ in your body. We need to treat it like a physical illness and
take it seriously."
-Demi Lovato
-Demi Lovato
Depression makes you feel small. So small that you sometimes
question your very existence. And when you feel this small you can’t even
consider giving a part of yourself to others because you don’t feel like you
have a part to give. It doesn’t matter if you want to, because you think that
if you try to give yourself to someone else there will be nothing left.
I don’t think that people with depression are selfish, just
like I don’t think that people with physical illnesses are selfish. Focusing
on yourself isn’t necessarily selfish and I think that trying to survive or
recover from a mental illness is one of those times when focusing on yourself isn’t selfish, it’s a necessity.
“Your illness is not your identity. Your
chemistry is not your character.”
-Rick Warren
-Rick Warren
That is powerful. I suffered from Suicidal Depression, PTS & a few others after being medically discharged from the Australian Army. Survival was Paramount. I am now an advocate for Mental Health and the Prevention of Veteran Suicides in our community.
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I can relate to every word. Mental illness is just like physical one. There's a lot of dogma in society to judge the mentally ill as if they had a choice. Being there I know depression is terrible and people just judge you which makes it even worse. Well written. Thanks for sharing!
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It is difficult to choose ourselves. Sometimes it is important to be alone, with us to analyze what we feel, but others do not understand how important this time is for us. To love the other is to respect him. Thank you for sharing your point of view.
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That was so well thought out and written. It is exactly like how I feel when I go through my depressions. I have family members who just don't get it, they just don't want to get it, they just don't want to take the time to get it. They would rather drift into my life take a dump and leave. I already feel like shit I didn't need your shit on top of my shit thank you very fucking much.
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